"Home... is where I am not." LOL, My sister told me this on the drive home. I think its abou the best expression of how I feel right now. How do I miss the community, the ability to walk into a lobby or into Bill and find other people doing things, anything. Now I sit at home and remember all the reasons I left. I am actually considering not coming back for Christmas next year though I know not what else I would do.
Yes, I am home and hating a 56k connection, my computer stayed in my dorm room and therefore I have to remember all my passwords and such. Amanda, aka "sister" dropped me off yesterday, hung around for a bit and then headed off to work. She will be back on Thursday. Dad had to drive over to Carson City for something. Mom and Dad thought about going to Reno and staying the night last night on the way there. Invited me to come but I declined hoping that they would go and enjoy themselves. As usual they didn't want to motivate themselves to get up and moving, so nothing materialized.
Been vegging all day. Sleep and read. I have a stack of US News and World reports that hadn't been getting forwarded sitting in my room that I have been reading through. Brought a box of books from school too, but they probably won't get touched for a while. Ironic thing is that as I am regaining my rest, I am thinking about actually going out and doing things... and realizing that there is nothing to do. Dad took me off of the car insurance, so I can't drive. (There was no reason to keep spending $200 when I was only around for 6 weeks or so) This adds another reason to go to Seattle this summer, because living up here without a car STINKS! But other than the satellite TV (which is one nice thing), reading, sleeping and eating (a recipe for adding 5 holiday pounds), here isn't much to do. So to all reading this, comments and questions about life are encouraged as they will give me something to do. Your blogs will also be frequented regularly I have a feeling.
Toodles and Merry Christmas!
Monday, December 20, 2004
Friday, December 17, 2004
Finals... are.... Over
Semester is over. I don't yet know if this is a good thing. I passed all my classes. I still have to finish my Torrey Paper for one last revision. Its due at 5:00 pm today. We get kicked out of the dorms at 10 pm. I will be headed home at 5:00 am tomorrow.
Chest infections suck! I am coughing up all kinds of good stuff, the worst part is that I know what is going on medically (Its happened often enough) and can do nothing medicine-wise for it 'cept for the OTC meds I am on now.
What is it about this time of year? I am just so lonely for someone to think that I am special. Everyone else has a special someone in one form or another. Caleb has Danielle; it's going to be interesting to hear about him with out her. She is so good for him. Anyways back to where I was. It is this realy indecypherable paradox. Everyones like "Your a smart, talented, caring guy. Well trained in the domesticated arts. You cook, clean, you can even sew if you have too. Your enterprising and going some where." They say all these things... But yet somehow all my interpersonal relationships seem really one sided. It seems like me trying to be nice and caring to others. I take time for their needs, don't get me wrong I enjoy helping people, I enjoy it alot, but I don't see other doing the same and I wish I did. I don't know. Maybe I need to step out of myself. Maybe I am being too selfish. Who knows....
That does seem to be the bad thing about Biola though... There are so many attractive girls who are great. Christians... Really souled out Christian Ladies who want to change the world for Christ. But the last few I have talked to have all seemed to change. "Thing 1" as Timothy, Jason and I refer to her as, was amazing to talk to early on in the semester. I talked to her during the first part of this week and it seemed that she had changed drastically... Not necessarily for the better. There was a demeanor that almost scared me. Made me think though... If we had decided to date, would that change have happened? That would have been bad for a relationship. "Thing 2" seems to have moved on as well. Dispite her words about not wanting to be involved with anyone she seems to be spending a great deal of time with Jon. I understand that feelings change and she may have found something there that we didn't have. But its just like her actions don't seem to match her words that she told me... I have been trying to keep my distance from her as not to complicate the situation. But when we talked the one time after deciding that we didn't want to date, it was hard because I felt like I was doing the input. I was being the caring emotional part. Thats not the way its supposed to work. I'm the guy for crying out loud! I am supposed to be the emotionally retarded jerk, not the one who is doing most of the "checking up on the relationship" stuff. I don't want to play into the steriotype, but if me being sensitive causes her not to be, then what?
Chest infections suck! I am coughing up all kinds of good stuff, the worst part is that I know what is going on medically (Its happened often enough) and can do nothing medicine-wise for it 'cept for the OTC meds I am on now.
What is it about this time of year? I am just so lonely for someone to think that I am special. Everyone else has a special someone in one form or another. Caleb has Danielle; it's going to be interesting to hear about him with out her. She is so good for him. Anyways back to where I was. It is this realy indecypherable paradox. Everyones like "Your a smart, talented, caring guy. Well trained in the domesticated arts. You cook, clean, you can even sew if you have too. Your enterprising and going some where." They say all these things... But yet somehow all my interpersonal relationships seem really one sided. It seems like me trying to be nice and caring to others. I take time for their needs, don't get me wrong I enjoy helping people, I enjoy it alot, but I don't see other doing the same and I wish I did. I don't know. Maybe I need to step out of myself. Maybe I am being too selfish. Who knows....
That does seem to be the bad thing about Biola though... There are so many attractive girls who are great. Christians... Really souled out Christian Ladies who want to change the world for Christ. But the last few I have talked to have all seemed to change. "Thing 1" as Timothy, Jason and I refer to her as, was amazing to talk to early on in the semester. I talked to her during the first part of this week and it seemed that she had changed drastically... Not necessarily for the better. There was a demeanor that almost scared me. Made me think though... If we had decided to date, would that change have happened? That would have been bad for a relationship. "Thing 2" seems to have moved on as well. Dispite her words about not wanting to be involved with anyone she seems to be spending a great deal of time with Jon. I understand that feelings change and she may have found something there that we didn't have. But its just like her actions don't seem to match her words that she told me... I have been trying to keep my distance from her as not to complicate the situation. But when we talked the one time after deciding that we didn't want to date, it was hard because I felt like I was doing the input. I was being the caring emotional part. Thats not the way its supposed to work. I'm the guy for crying out loud! I am supposed to be the emotionally retarded jerk, not the one who is doing most of the "checking up on the relationship" stuff. I don't want to play into the steriotype, but if me being sensitive causes her not to be, then what?
Spider Webs
i wish someone would care about my life
its not to hard, not really
no strings, not hear,
no spiderwebs to get caught up in
sticky trails of silk emotion.
(Why does no one comment on my posts?)
its not to hard, not really
no strings, not hear,
no spiderwebs to get caught up in
sticky trails of silk emotion.
(Why does no one comment on my posts?)
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Check out these wheels!
This is a film project my suite mate put togather.
http://www.bubbs.biola.edu/~thatcher/pimpout.html
He's a Film Major. The star of the production is the Resident Assistant for my Floor. Micah Keepin' it gangsta! Word up SURF!
Pre Med Medic
http://www.bubbs.biola.edu/~thatcher/pimpout.html
He's a Film Major. The star of the production is the Resident Assistant for my Floor. Micah Keepin' it gangsta! Word up SURF!
Pre Med Medic
Saturday, December 11, 2004
Soul Ministry
Mint hot chocolate and cherry turnovers… Seriously, they mend my soul. It is a rare feeling indeed, the feeling I get of warmth that spreads through my body as I sip mint hot chocolate. Add the thin, delectable layers combined with the sweet, smooth filling of a cherry turn over and I am in culinary heaven. Some how when I am in a place no mater how stressful (I would know as finals are in full swing) the drink alone is enough to put my mind at ease and my soul at rest. How is it that baked goods and steaming cups of culinary and confectous delight can have such a great effect on me? Is it something that Starbucks spikes there drinks with? Some magical concoction that bubbles in a kettle in the back of their establishment that the barista must go and stir every once and a while?
There must be something in chocolate that affects our chemistry in order to have such a profound effect on us mere mortals
‘Tis the season! I walk everywhere and there is red and green and pine boughs and holly. There is something about Christmas that seems to resonate with most people. The community alone is a major factor in it. There is something special about being able to wish everyone “Merry Christmas!” as they pass you in at the grocery store or on campus. Sure there are the occasional Scrooge’s who dislike the holiday for what ever reason, the lack of political correctness, the over-commercialization or the theological inaccuracy of the holiday in regards to Christ’s actual birthday, but these people are no reason for the rest of us not to be full of Holiday cheer. So Merry Christmas... Speaking of which I get to go see the last showing of Torrey Theatre's Production of A Christmas Carol tommarrow!
There must be something in chocolate that affects our chemistry in order to have such a profound effect on us mere mortals
‘Tis the season! I walk everywhere and there is red and green and pine boughs and holly. There is something about Christmas that seems to resonate with most people. The community alone is a major factor in it. There is something special about being able to wish everyone “Merry Christmas!” as they pass you in at the grocery store or on campus. Sure there are the occasional Scrooge’s who dislike the holiday for what ever reason, the lack of political correctness, the over-commercialization or the theological inaccuracy of the holiday in regards to Christ’s actual birthday, but these people are no reason for the rest of us not to be full of Holiday cheer. So Merry Christmas... Speaking of which I get to go see the last showing of Torrey Theatre's Production of A Christmas Carol tommarrow!
Thursday, December 09, 2004
A new level of personal body armor
I was just asked if I thought that the armor that is issued to the soldiers is adaquate. I said from a medical perspective, the armor given is enough to prevent most life threatening injuries... The head is protected by the Kevlar Ballistic helmet and the majority of the body is covered in the standard flak vest. Frequently this protection is augumented with the addition of Wiley style ballistic eyewear and ceramic plates to the armor vest. These protective measures are life saving but as my previous post illistrated the damage to ones extremities. Other methods may be needed to protect ones extremities and the serious vulnerable points of the current protective material, e.g. the underarm areas of the current flak vest. Such advancements would add a great deal to the quality of life of a casualty after an injury.
The conversation at this point shifted into humor. When I began to meander into the area of further protection of ones person the lower body was taken into consideration along the lines of invcreased quality of life. The idea of a kevlar loin cloth came to mind and was soon extrapolated to a kilt. So there was a motion made that the United states army should addapt current protective equipment to include flak kilts. You could even have different camoflauge to go with different units much to the same extent of one clan tarten. "They may take our lives, but they may never take our FREEDOM!"
The blue face paint probably should be left out though...
On a personal note: I was just informed that two of my friends maintain their "Titanic Virginity." They have managed to make it through their miserable pathetic lives and deprived themselves of a movie. By no means, am I a Leonardo fan nor especially of the movie, but rather the prospect of avoiding a movie based purely on reputation is rather idiotic.
Must continue with my work now... I have to finish a number of essays, ugh!
PremedMedic
The conversation at this point shifted into humor. When I began to meander into the area of further protection of ones person the lower body was taken into consideration along the lines of invcreased quality of life. The idea of a kevlar loin cloth came to mind and was soon extrapolated to a kilt. So there was a motion made that the United states army should addapt current protective equipment to include flak kilts. You could even have different camoflauge to go with different units much to the same extent of one clan tarten. "They may take our lives, but they may never take our FREEDOM!"
The blue face paint probably should be left out though...
On a personal note: I was just informed that two of my friends maintain their "Titanic Virginity." They have managed to make it through their miserable pathetic lives and deprived themselves of a movie. By no means, am I a Leonardo fan nor especially of the movie, but rather the prospect of avoiding a movie based purely on reputation is rather idiotic.
Must continue with my work now... I have to finish a number of essays, ugh!
PremedMedic
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
A veiw of Military Medicine
Hey All...
The New England Journal of Medicine just published an article on military medicine.
You can check out the Yahoo! Article here
There is another Yahoo! article about Navy Medicine here
The NEJM article can be found here
The Slide show of photos can be found here
This is for all of you who are considering Military Medicine or may have an interest or appreciation because you know someone involved (corpsman/medic/nurse/doctor). This is the way life works for us. I belong to a Combat Support Hospital very similar to the one pictured (luckily, we are not in Iraq). The remarks made about the limited number of doctors and surgeons is very true. However, something possibly left out by the article is the use of Physicians Assistants to suppliment the medical strength. If you have any further questions on this issue feel free to reply directly to me.
I will caution you that the slideshow on the website does contain some very graphic trauma photos. If you wish to see the infrastructure and avoid the blood and gore only veiw pictures # 1-4, 13-17,19 and 21 (there are some patients receiving care but no wounds).
PreMed Medic
91W Heathcare Specialist
US Army Reserve
Four things a man must learn to do
If He would make his record true:
To think without confusion clearly;
To love his fellow-man sincerely;
To act from honest motives purely;
Trust in God and Heaven securely.
-- Henry Van Dyke, "Four Things,"
The New England Journal of Medicine just published an article on military medicine.
You can check out the Yahoo! Article here
There is another Yahoo! article about Navy Medicine here
The NEJM article can be found here
The Slide show of photos can be found here
This is for all of you who are considering Military Medicine or may have an interest or appreciation because you know someone involved (corpsman/medic/nurse/doctor). This is the way life works for us. I belong to a Combat Support Hospital very similar to the one pictured (luckily, we are not in Iraq). The remarks made about the limited number of doctors and surgeons is very true. However, something possibly left out by the article is the use of Physicians Assistants to suppliment the medical strength. If you have any further questions on this issue feel free to reply directly to me.
I will caution you that the slideshow on the website does contain some very graphic trauma photos. If you wish to see the infrastructure and avoid the blood and gore only veiw pictures # 1-4, 13-17,19 and 21 (there are some patients receiving care but no wounds).
PreMed Medic
91W Heathcare Specialist
US Army Reserve
Four things a man must learn to do
If He would make his record true:
To think without confusion clearly;
To love his fellow-man sincerely;
To act from honest motives purely;
Trust in God and Heaven securely.
-- Henry Van Dyke, "Four Things,"
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